The Knitting Theologian

I’m still in week 2. It’s interesting to be asked to focus on “images, memories, crossroads, specific painful memories” at a time when I am standing at a rather large crossroads and aware of a lot of painful memories, some quite recent. So I need to take more time with this.

Last week I got a little further with acceptance, though. I had been tormenting myself with the difference between what I thought I ought to feel and what I actually did feel. Really a large gap between those two. But late last week I finally remembered something from the Sacred Space prayer book: “I acknowledge how I really am. It is the real me that the Lord loves.” Reflecting on that gave me the courage to accept how I really felt.

As part of my renewal of my spiritual life, I have decided to make the online retreat available through Creighton University’s Online Ministries. I tried this retreat a few years ago, but was unable to complete it. I don’t know how I’ll do this time either, but one thing I want to do is blog about my experience.

I’m hoping it’ll help me write more on this blog, on a more regular basis. And I figure my three dedicated readers (Hi Mom! Hi Dad! Hi Dominic!) are people I’d share my retreat experience with anyway.

I started week 1 of the online retreat today.